So, I've been home from school this semester for various reasons. Mainly, I came home because i didn't feel any passion for what I was learning. I didn't get any joy out of learning. I'm not sure if I just needed to give it more time, but it was the third time I was changing my major.
The only thing I've truly been committed to is running, but due to various illnesses and injuries, my favorite outlet was taken away from me. I have since recovered, but I still fear that one day I'll be hurt again. I have learned to listen to my body. I enjoy biking, rollerblading, swimming, yoga, hiking, and many other athletic activities.
Over the summer, I bought a road bike, and although I invested my life's worth into it, I believe it was worth every penny. I get to travel places that I would never be able to handle running to in one day. I also own snow shoes that I use to embrace the winter time snow. I find that it's extremely important to avoid the winter blues. I seek sunshine and adventure always.
Now that I've been home, I've been writing poems and true short stories. I also teach children how to swim and help organize activities at an after school program. The fall was beautiful this year, so i was able to enjoy hiking in the Adirondack's and at Letchworth State Park. I love how free the outdoors makes me feel. I don't know how people can stay cooped up indoors all day. I just have to go outside and do something. Although, if it's raining, I'm really not a huge fan of being outdoors. Only if I'm super motivated will I run in the rain. Sometimes it's fun to jump in puddles. I guess it depends on my mood.
Well, onto the title of this post. I can't decide what to do next semester. I'm pretty sure I'm not returning to college yet. I am fortunate enough to have the help of my parents in paying for college, but they don't really want me returning to a private school if I don't know what I truly want to do. I know I want to start learning again. I feel like I have learned a lot since I've been home. I've worked with people and children. I've opened up about a lot, and I'm becoming the creative person that I used to be.
I had almost of 3.5 GPA when I was at school, but I never really felt like I deserved it. I didn't feel that I was putting my whole heart into what I was learning. I've always worked hard in school. If you don't work hard at something, you will not succeed at anything. If I am going to commit to a major, I want to put my heart and soul into it. I want to know that I will not back out this time around.
First off, I know that I want to change the world. I want to help people. I want to help children. i want to make people laugh. I want to help them learn. I want them to discover things. I want people to be more creative. I want people to move around and adventure. Most people don't take enough time out of their day to just discover what is in their own backyard.
I need to decide what type of classes I want to take next semester.
I'd like to incorporate health and physical activity, creativity, and learning together. People need to know what is going on in their own country as well as the world. If people have the time to watch reality TV shows where contestants are constantly belittling each other, than those people have time to educate themselves about the issues that they should be caring about.
For the sake of our next generation, creative solutions to our problems must be discovered. I guess maybe that's where I am headed. I want to help create solutions, but I'm not really interested in politics. I guess I just want to create a new paradigm. I think that if you put a bunch of people in a room, give them an issue to resolve, eventually, if they are in that room long enough, they will use their creativity to find a solution.
We may all have different lifestyle's, IQ's, and careers, but we all have the ability to make a difference.
I guess I sort of know what I want to do. I just need to fine tune it. I'm glad I wrote this.
